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so its 5.24 am now and what have i done for the day? nthg much. ive been totally unproductive today. besides the fact i was attentive in class for comm law. other than tt. i cnt seem to sqeesh in much for MAb! arghh. i think im so gg to die. bury me soon.
on another note:
thots brought me back to tt night when i cld utterly disappointed with myself and life just had sucha dipp downwards i cld feel my heart stoppin tryin to flush the inner tears within down. the worst person on earth with the lousiest social skills and a dumb brain and the list goes on. then strangely the person whom was always there just bout distant away. didnt bother to stretch me a helpin hand. but just came by and pulled up outta my pits. she's way sweet. of the norm. i cnt express my gratitude enough. the crayons in my black and white world. the tunin fork prolly. inshort. she just placed this dumb icecreambox inside a microwave. milkshake anyone? i guess often we feel miserable knowin the ones we care cld care less bout u. and u pretendin tt everythg will still b fine cos life will get on. but as u battle on. the bitterness gets to u more than a piece of choc when its darkchocs we're talkin bout. we forget the ones along the way always beside for us. and today. i asked if she's alright cos her nick on msn didnt look too right. she replied its nthg till i brought back tt smile on u. aint she a darling? ur sucha treasure to me, TAN SHI LING! -muarks! i know she prolly wnt share wadds buggin her till she knows im fine on my side. sighs.
at times i wld like to know wadd rilly is love. is love to abandon one for another for greater love or? or to create and be in love but cause another to be outta love. left in misery and pain. just for your own pleasure? ohh why. or how true isit to have more than one targets. to actually forgo one after one? isit for the sake of gettin attached or for the sake of love? everythgs gettin complexed isit. i bet the ones whom are sniggerin cld b adam and eve. cos wadds there to be complexed bout when there wernt choices? or true devotion to one another. how is love at first sight possible? courtship and marriage all ties in? and in case u think ive fallen into the river of love myself. sorry to disappoint u. ive made considerable thots and have fallen for NO one. im just puzzled with everythgs tt gg on. its hard not to b curious isnt. lastly. dnt play with fire. if u dnt wanna get ur Pants burnt let alone ur bare hands. if its my fren u think u can put the sparks on, i'll make sure i'll toast u. crunch. period. -dun mess with the lil' mighty. bwahaha.
yippee, invitation cup for my club has been pushed till mid may june. arhaha. gd reason to train once again. and im gonna watch inter con competitions happenin mayjunejuly ard there! *woots* anyone wanna go too? pesta sukan is comin too. tho i whine tt i dnt have scv to catch vb matches. im gg to catch the live ones soon. yeshh yeshh yeshh. - okay. so i rilly miss vb =(
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