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hello my dear graveyard! a place silent and of peace. where memories are to dwell. where hate is placed down. where love is remembered. where friendships can blossom and diminish somehow. aniways. its the CNY! visitations and gettin fat with all tt munchin and overdosage of slackin. =) after it all. its assignments prjs and test! yesh. got this MAB test comin super soon and i know nuts peanuts bout it. i do agree the IVPs gave me no choice to leave lectures halfway cos its all the way at TP. but i hope its gonna give me more reason to werk for harder for my tests and all. in midst wld be the plannin for the initiation day as well as sports day and bash. more meetings. more plannings. what can i say. so what if im assistant deputy. what a post. if i was given a choice. i wld rather not be. theres just too much of it. maybe its just the norm for ange to get busy. but if one cld rilly look back. time can be put aside bcos she desires so. for the desire if of pure fellowship. maybe it wld mean less rest. to sacrifice somethg in exchange. but at the end of the day. all these wld loose its meaning. bcos it was worth it so.
during the IVPs
there was much gg on. thoughts feelings much more. it hit me hard. terribly it was so sore. imagine salt to be rubbed upon. life gets well. life getts sucky too. and so i did blive some will come physically to give their support. ended up dissappointin myself even more. and then i came to realisation. it wasnt them tt meant more to me now. but to give 300% to the game. 100% originally. 100% to the rest. 100% to one. to those who came unexpectedly, i appreciate it so. it did made a difference in our play with SMU when we beat them 3 nil. if u knew ange for who she rilly was. then u will realise how much honesty and sincerity means to her. if u wldnt so. just go.
ive learnt much from this IVPs. it wasnt satisfaction. it wasnt victory. it was the team whom taught me much. to be significant in your insignificance. to have humility. to trust. to entrust. to love. to press on and to fight hard. to let go some and look forward. why encourage. why reprimand. why enforce. much much more. maybe i havent rilly grasp it all. but im glad i was put thru it. cos its just the very beginning. deepest gratitude goes out to lijun for being strict with me. till the last day of ivp ur sms came. told me it was all cos of the high expectations u made on me. to stoop down to apologise for tt. u tuggd somethg in ange. u rilly did. no excuses it was for u. hvnt met them but i wnt stop tryin till ive met them and when tt day comes. i'll make u proud laoda. to jo & mavis whom nv cease with your encouragements. why ever wld i meet someone like u so sweet. to peifeng whom evaluated me on our way home. u did not turn me down but made it well. u nv pointed out a wrong of a mistake but explained and made me understand why i made it so. to change angles of point of views. patience in correctin my over and overtime mistakes made. strict with me to make sure i dont go wrong. to suqing my dajiejie. nv failed to remind me to focus and to try for every ball. gave me so much tips despite my incapabilty. givin me tt push when i start to feel down. each and everyone made tt impact. created something in ange. in all. u all nv looked down on a lil' nothin. maybe i will still be this way nx ivp. but i promise it will be someone better than today. bcos of what u guys did.
the team. my pride always. =)
words are but of nthg left to say. nv good at expressions aniway. mayb lettin thgs be is the best way. i still miss u. but i guess. u wnt rilly aniway ..
- the day the tail was snipped.
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