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WASabi !!!
justin (da ger)
emi ( our energizer!)
feline (da jie)
janet (er jie)
lydia ( thks for always noticin me when im so down) :)
shan (xiao mei)
ann ( long qia pas, help finish food lei)
germaine (our babe!)
terence ( mr strong guy who gave me tt big blow on the face) ps. im okay now le. :)
da yu ( beeg fissh)
sun da ( our suan target) ;p
enn has got a new family tree!
my kors: jason, joshua
gonggong (grand dad): sean
susus (uncles): yida and ah guan
sisters: van, xiu, yen, ping
best buddy and bro: fakang
lil bro: amos
my newfound darrlingg: cwystal nicolette ;)
what has been happening so far
ive been sick for so long ive lost count
cnt remember when was the last time i had a gd rest
but what i know is i have a bunch of frens tt has been tryin to make the best out of my days
intentional unintentional it didnt really matter
somethings lost some gain
u guys tt ive mentioned above i luuvve yew to the core
after all the pubbings sessions
makans, muggins and more muggins, sentosa outings, rough tuff capts match
i got so burnt and just more burns
a big blow on the face and rummin hard on the ground
all the shit ive gone through why isit for
i survived once more i wonder why
so much crazy nights and lotsa fun instored
guess i did manage to let loose awhile
the reffing sessions gave me the excuse to buy my time away from the world
and take everythg of me somewhere else
somewhere i hid away from everythg else
i chose to sit by the oceans and let out silent screams
and allow the flow of hurt trinke down slow
till the very last drop
whatever that has happen may be history
yet it will be a wound take still takes time to heal
but an ugly scar will always remain
nothing will mar this pain this hurt
things happened not for an incident
a string of happenings tore me down
ripped me off so hard i cldnt explain
yet its life im takin over according to His will
for the things ive done to shut myself away from everyone everythg
i shut Him off from my heart as well
for almost mths ive been so irregular in church
overloaded with schedules and deadlines all over the place
the main idea was to runaway
today i stood before Him
i played the drums for worship and something happened in my heart
tell me it was You, my Lord
i know no one else will, but You
i was lost yet You havent forsaked me
told lil bro i was badly injured and sick
the remark i got sucked so much i teared inside
i get crap when im honest and truthful
isit how sincerity is supposedly to be played back
im just hurtin more inside
for all the smiles my frens find on me
was just a surface of ange
deepdown ive started to fade
loosing myself ive lost my grip
i just wanted pple ard me to be happy
and maybe that way i would
i still have so much so much bottled within me
i cant let loose i so cant let go
so what i tried to numb it all
drunken stupor it works not
a stupid mask i so freakin hate to wear
leadin my life as if it was okay
time is nv on my side
i guess i wnt be needing it for now
some things have changed and maybe it wnt ever be reversed
maybe who u see is still ange
but inside its just enn now
lettin go hurts
lettin go the most cherished in your life
hurts tremendously
for now i know my life has taken this turn
no regrets or whatsoever
i have this bunch of frens i so so adore
my wasabi bunch and esp my darllingg and gang
maybe we havent weathered any rain or storm
so what if we had cos those ive had has become history
so what isit that is remembered
what is the worth of all
i can no longer comprehend
just dont take my hand now cos i guess i cnt give it to you
whats hurtin is still lingering
the smiles and laughters of ange
is no more
faded disappeared vanished most probably
it has come to a point of time nothing seems to matter anymore
maybe for my two bunches of frens and some others
for now im lettin time go ...
`4:01 PM